It has taken me a long time to come to the realization that I will be ok, yes it hurts now and I'm sure it will for a while. Let me start by first giving a little back history. I'm 26, have a wonderful job and an amzaing family. It seems that everything had gone down hill about 2 years ago, right after I had lost a family memeber. I had reconnected with a "male" friend of mine. Things had been going well. Or at least I had thought so. We had arrangements with each other for a very long time. Well unfortunately, being a female it appears that my emotions had gotten in the way... Go FIGURE!
Well as it turns out the feelings were not mutal....after spending two years with this one person hoping for a spark of something, I made the choice to let it go. Along with letting go of all of the "benefits" I had to let go of a good friend, actually one of the most consistant people in my life. I thought after two weeks I would be ok, but it doesn't appear to be that way, I think it's getting a bit worse actually. But with the help of my friends who know about the situation I know I will be ok.
So here I am today.. Sitting at work, not actually working but trying to figure out my life.. I have seems to let things slip away from me a bit.. I was losing weight and was doing great... Then I stopped. I wasn't smoking, but then I started again, I was saving money, then I blew it all.. It seems like a really horrible pattern.. I need to figure my life out. Im 26 still living at home with my parents not paying rent or anything! I should be better off than this. So I am going to try to stick to my goals starting today! I have set up a couple of different tasks for myself. There will be more information to come on these later, they will include my plans to eat healither, work out schedule, my budget as well as my stories of online dating! YES! I know I've done it I've admitted it, I joing an online dating site, actually ive been on there for over 6 months, I will back track with some of those horror stories at a later time as well.
One last thing before I go, I just want to put this out there, I dont expect any followers or anyone to constently read what I write, but I know for a fact that this will help me be more accountable for my actions and my goals knowing that possible somone is "watching."
Until next time....
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